Fall Apart

This is one of those songs that everyone should hear and be inspired by. 

   

When I really think about it, the moments where I've gotten closest to God have been when I just start stomping around my room going, "God, what are you doing to me?!?!"

*Trust me, I've asked that questions billions of times.*

And then He answers me, "I am molding you into My child."

"But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him. But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him.  Then the word of the LORD came to me. He said, 'Can I not do with you, Israel, as this potter does?' declares the LORD. 'Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, Israel.'  Jeremiah 18:4-6

He is shaping me into my unique pot--who knows, maybe I'll be a cup, that someone may be refreshed out of me, perhaps a vase, so that God could use me to showcase His beauty, only He knows.
One of His other answers is, "Who are you to judge me, who made you?"
Or, to go to His word. . .“Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him?
   Let him who accuses God answer him!” Job 40:2  
Pretty straight forward, huh?
One of these moments was when my parents decided to home school me--picture my situation; I was eight, so not very advanced as far as my Christian life was concerned, and was being "ripped" out of public school, from all of my "friends", but through that "loss" I gained so much. I gained discernment to chose my friends wisely, faith, that I may trust in the Lord. Hard situations, that I may emphasize with others. But most importantly, I gained Him. I was truly lost, and sometimes (almost always) God chooses His servants to be those that are lost, weary and broken; looking for something. . .Looking for a savior. And, whether we know it or not, the Savior. Because it is when we are truly emptied inside that God can show His works in us, allowing people to see that miracles still exist. He shall humble us before he exalts us.

About a year and a half after I became home schooled, I picked up my Bible and began reading at a winter weekend retreat at a Christian camp. I opened up to Genesis, starting with Jacob fleeing from Esau and going from there. I have continued on with that habit, studying avidly.
Now, I realized that what was once "the worst thing that ever happened to me" turned out to be the best.

 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:27

"Faith sees the invisible, believes the unbelievable, and receives the impossible."--Corrie Ten Boom
"Do you have an arm like God’s,
   and can your voice thunder like his?"  Job 40:9  

"At the timberline where the storms strike with the most fury, the sturdiest trees are found." Hudson Taylor

~Elizabeth